Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Today was scary, cause i dunno if i will get caught for my hair? but anyway i just took a pair of scissors and snip off my tail? hahas! its one straight line now? hahas! but who cares? as long as i dun get caught loh. hahas. rather interesting these few days. i think i am not productive in my studies at all? hahas! mom's scolding me all day bah? hahas going to start studying at 9? hahas! dunno if it will last, cause i always say i will study but in the end i didnt? hahas!
Today we got back our Olvl math prelim results? hahas! got a B4? quite happy, but i was aiming for a B3 hahas! but my B4 isnt that bad.. about 2.5marks to a B3 bah? hahas! i really thank God cause really i didnt expect it? hahas! but alot of careless mistake hahas! i feel that God always deserve better praise then songs and stuff. But i am not saying like when we sing songs its not good enough, but i think when we jump its got to be also the heart that jumps for God. when we sing songs, the heart has to sing too? thus its a lifestyle? in the ups and downs period? but its gotta come to an end now lah. enough, no more.
BUT STILL PRAISE GOD! =D
talked about being sensative to people with xwl yesterday. sometimes i can just see people wearing mask? hahas, they put on a smile but inside its not like that. well how do i know? hahas! cause sometimes i do too, xwl approached me on that matter once. i was shocked when she suddenly asked me about things that were bugging me. lol! but it was God, God revealed things to her. i feel even as Christians we should also be mask breakers for people. showing them how God wanna use them as they are.
lets backtrack in the times where my mask was on. hahas for me i'm a person who will smile at a problem bah? hahas! use to think that as long as i smile i would be faithful to know that God will overcome the problem also. hahas! but no, things doesnt seem to work out that way? when things got worst, i realise that the smile wouldn't last for long. i can still rmb pastor preston told the leaders, you got to see the tears they wiped before coming to church where you see them. well i think thats not only for leaders but for all of us Christians to even see that come through in our friends. And one thing i can never forget, he said to the people, " you can fool your pastor, you can fool the people around you, But you cant fool me and you cant fool God" i realise now that its sensativity given by God. and i realise that i can sense if people are wearing mask? but i am someone that goes hyper or crazy, causing me to be so insensative sometimes. hahas!
really wanna worship God with everything, its hard, but its a choice.
all my life, praise you
in my sleep praise you
praise you in everything that i do
5:24 AM
